Christmas in 2 days time.. Being feeling moody recently.. Don't really know why.. Perhaps I don't even understand myself well.. Went out on Friday for an Guild BBQ.. Seriously it's not what I expected.. I went there feeling down , and went home feeling worse.. Kevin came down all the way from Serangoon.. But I seriously don't have the mood to chat with him.. Sorry Bro for wasting your time..
Stayed at home on Saturday as it was raining.. The sky somehow could understand what I was thinking.. It was as if the sky was crying for mi.. Crying for all my pain and sorrows.. Crying for what I have become.. It's too late to apologise.. Too late to do anything now.. Being an adult is about growing up emotionally and mentally.. But I guess I'm not ready for this burden.. I feel the weight of the whole world on my shoulder..
Today is the dawn of a new Era.. I don't know why I chose this day.. But today will be the day I start to revolutionise myself.. To evolve my thinking and feelings.. To change from what I was to what I will be.. Maybe the changes is not big now.. But slowly and surely , you will see changes in mi that you won't expect.. I dyed my hair today.. Hoping to change my looks and perhaps , bring out my inner self.. As usual , the sky still weeps for mi.. I wonder when it will start feeling happy for mi.. Or when I will start feeling happy myself.. It's Christmas eve tomorrow , another lonely Christmas spent alone.. Don't bother asking mi out.. My answer to your question will be simple.. You can say what you want.. But I'm sticking to myself.. Silent night is suppose to be silent.. And to mi , silent is being alone.. And being able to think through what I have done this past year.. Think through the mistakes I haven done.. Think through the errors I made.. Anyway it's too late.. What's done is already done.. All I can do is hope and pray that I will not make that mistake again.. That's about all.. Merry Christmas everyone..
Signing off here