Gotten my Results on Thursday.. I got 17 points for my L1R4.. Can't believe I could get such a lousy score for my O levels.. Now I'm stuck on deciding where I should go , and this sucks alot.. Been thinking alot for this few days since I gotten my results.. But none of the courses are to my liking.. It's like having no clues about my future.. Walking around aimlessly and staring blankly into space is what I was doing lately.. And what's worse was I can't even have the chance to fight for my future as there isn't any course I'm interested in.. The only course similar is Veterinary science but the Cut Off Point is a fucking 10 point.. 10 point.. How the fuck am I suppose to get into that course? Can someone just enlighten mi? I'm kind of stuck in a quicksand , the more I struggle the deeper I sink in.. Where should I go? I dare say my dream is impossible in Singapore.. I want to become an Animal Researcher.. I want to be able to travel around the world.. To be able to explore different types of place , to be able to observe different types of animals.. But is that possible? I think I can only study that course at overseas.. But how am I suppose to do it if my family isn't rich? How am I suppose to do it if I don't even have the financial ability to support myself now? I need help.. Seriously I need alot of help.. Mentally or Morally.. I need all the help I can get to overcome this obstacle.. Or maybe I should say it's the turning point of my life.. Monday will be the last day of application.. I think I should just let my exhausted mind rest.. Continue my pondering tomorrow..

Signing off here...