How boring can my life get? Been doing the same thing everyday.. Spent my night at the canal yesterday.. Didn't really sleep much , just stared at the same spot the whole night.. Surprisingly I'm not tired now.. So I decided to come blogging.. Having a splitting headache now as I drank 3 bottle of Heineken yesterday while sitting at the bench of the canal doing nothing.. I watched how the bottles sink into the canal and wished so hard that I can also sink into the canal and never be found again.. I wonder how I got home this morning.. Maybe I was still conscious but I couldn't remember anything now.. How nice it is to be able to forget everything.. Everything and everyone around you.. Just stay in this state amnesia.. To be able to see the world in an new angle.. So maybe if I keep drinking everyday I can somehow , someday forget everything about mi.. Memories Memories Memories.. Why can't I just throw them out of the windows? Why is it so hard to forget? Why is it so hard to make people believe you? How the fuck can I get you to believe mi? I beg and I plead to no avail.. I cry and fall to my knees and yet nothing changes.. Soon I'll go crazy or maybe I already am.. I need something to cure my madness and you are my cure.. Perhaps life's like that.. You know she is what you wanted and yet Fate somehow brings you 2 far apart.. It's time to face reality.. Love hurts and it's true.. I know you're hurt and I know there's nothing I can do to help you.. Maybe you're right.. I will only bring you more hurt.. So I hope time can heal your wounds..
Signing off here...