First of all , those people out there who thought I have changed.. Please get a life , I'm still myself.. I have not changed , It's just that you don't know mi well.. I remembered that I've told you guys before that I have Schizophrenia , or maybe He told you all.. I can't remember who But I'm kind , So I shall repeat again for all those idiots who don't understand.. I have Schizophrenia , a relatively rare dissociative disorder in which the usual integrity of the personality breaks down and two or more independent personalities emerge.. Well , to put it simply , I have 2 different personalities inside my body.. 1 is Joe and 1 is Ailerone.. For all you know , I may seem cheerful on Msn or in games.. That's because another entity inside my brain took over my body.. But I'm not saying that's not mi , that's also part of mi.. It's just that you will seldom see that part of mi.. I mean recently , He's like gone.. I don't know whether it's good or not , especially when I'm starting school real soon.. And there's a overnight camp from 8 - 10 April also , I don't know whether I should go or not.. Kevin is in same school as mi , Engineering informatics.. So I guess I won't be alone , but It's not my style to go around making friends.. I usually wait for them to appear.. So I'll be really lonely in School , but that's the way I like it.. No restrains..

Faith works.. Does Faith really works? What happens when no one is there to answer your prayers , not even God? Should you fight for yourself? Or should you continue praying even when you're dying? Why can't you just fight the last battle by yourself instead of depending on others? But I guess it's just human nature , So let's face it.. Human are selfish by nature , Everything we do are for the benefits of our self Or for future beneficial needs.. Someone once told mi that there can be Miracles when you believe.. I tried believing in everything , but somehow everything seems to go wrong always.. Then I stopped believing , trusting no one but myself.. Sometimes not even myself.. I became what I've became today.. I wonder who I should put the blame on.. Maybe no one but myself..

Signing off here...