Life Sux Take Drugs

I've been treating everyone around mi really bad recently.. I don't know what the hell is going on with mi and my Life is in a serious mess.. Life Sux Take Drugs.. I wonder is there any Drugs that can make mi fall into a deep coma or something.. So that I can take a long break from everything.. Time is past by so fast without waiting for mi.. Without knowing , 1 week has past by.. And yet my mind is still stuck exactly a week ago.. I can't seemed to think properly , my body can't function properly.. I think I'm moving but I'm not going nowhere.. I'm stuck and I need a helping hand.. But nobody seems to be able to help mi.. Either they tell mi things I don't want to hear or they ask mi to do things I don't want to.. Guys , Just leave mi alone.. Whether I rot in hell or burn in hell , It's my business.. Just give mi time to waste my days away and away.. Til the day when I finally grow up or when I think I can't take it anymore.. Either way , It's my choice.. Stop asking mi to do things against my will.. Just treat it like a show or something , Look and don't interfere.. Love is suppose to be a Game for two.. But I don't think so , Love isn't suppose to be a Game to start with.. I took every word I said to you seriously.. I took every word You said to mi seriously as well.. But somehow we're just not meant for each other.. I wondered what's wrong with mi.. Was it something I did , Was it something you said? How come I'm always the one who always gets the news last? How come I'm always the one left behind? How come I'm always got forgotten? How I wish that my Life can be a Game so I can press the restart button anytime I want.. It was already very kind for God to let mi know you.. And I thank Zihao for bringing us together.. Or should I thank fate? But can I have someone to hate for losing you? Can I have someone to blame watching you walk away? What was it that we lack? Trust? Love? What was it? Seriously , I have always been the one telling you what I wanted.. When can I ever know What you want? Do you always have to keep things to yourself? And Suddenly I heard you're attached.. How am I suppose to react? What did you expect mi to do? Just give you up like that? I can't even put up a fight when I wasn't even given the chance to do so.. Yesterday you finally talked to mi on Msn , I was so elated even thought you said less than 3 words to mi.. At least I know you're ok with him.. But am I suppose to feel happy with the position I'm in? Or am I suppose to complain? But is there anyone for mi to complain to? I hope you read my blog so you can know I feel.. I'm not asking you to do anything important for mi.. I'm just begging you to reply my smses.. Once in awhile will do.. But anyway , It's your choice.. I shan't force you and give you stress.. I'm just venting my frustration on this blog.. Don't have to mind what I'm saying..

Signing off here..

P.S : I don't care whether this is a test or not , or whatever this it.. I'll be waiting.. And I hope you know that I really miss you alot..