dementia praecox

Humans, don't you think that they are weird.
They change their minds as though they are flipping the pages of a book.
Every time they find something new and nice, they'll throw things that was once their favorite into the corner.
Every time they find a new friend, they'll chuck those friends they called best friends aside.
Every time they see a new guy whom they find interesting, they'll betray their friends and lie to themselves just to spend time with the new guy.
Often, they'll say things about liking someone today and liking another someone tomorrow.
Is it really that easy to change whoever you like within a day?
Is it really to forget someone that you like within a day?
And what's wrong with all those people who lies to those they like?
They lie to gain sympathy, they lie to gain trust, and they lie to be near to you.
They make you wait by coming up with lies, they make you anticipate by coming up with lies.
Everything about this particular someone is made up of lies, I'm sure everyone has someone like this in their social circle.
There used to be someone like this among my friends, but as from today onwards, that person is officially removed from my list of friends.
If you think I'm talking about you, then you're probably right.
And maybe you should just fuck off and die with all the lies that you're attempting to come up with.
And for those amount of time I spent waiting for nothing, you definitely should suffer in hell for that.
I have about a million bad things about you running through my mind right now.
But I think I will just make do with just these 10 things for you are not worth wasting my time over.


Right now, I'm in this unstable state of mind that they call dementia praecox.
I had this little conversation with myself just the other day.
It goes like this:

"What were you thinking of 2 hours ago?"

"Her."

"What are you thinking of now"

"Her."

"Then you love her."

I got this idea from a book I read years and years ago. This book is called "I Believe You" by Low Kay Hwa. According to him, love is a simple thing, either you love or you don't.
Which I believe is very true, my first impression of the book was that it was quite predictable. But after reading it numerous times, I have to admit that the book is definitely worth reading another 10 times, or perhaps even more.
So right now, I'm lusting for this particular book. And if anyone has it please kindly lend it to me. I promise I'll take good care of it. Or if you have any other books by Low Kay Hwa, I would like to borrow it from you too. =)